Friday, November 14, 2003
Didn't you . . . . "Make life beautiful! Make life beautiful!"
- He knows that on iffy days, he should underdress, but he never follows through.
- When he's having a good day, he drives differently, often with one hand over the top of the steering wheel.
- Some days he forgets all the attention, walking through campus, how it affects his face.
- He doesn't understand those who label their web logs "Deep Thoughts" or "Random Thoughts".
- Some days it's an AM day, some days it's an FM day.
- He remembers a time of melting snow and a thick leather jacket, walking from class and avoiding eyes he once knew.
- Even though he needs his work ID every day, he almost always has to run back in the house to fetch it.
- He recognizes a deep divide between those who just rinse after number 1 and those who walk right out after number 2.
- Some winter days, the sun is so bright off the snow, reflecting back against his contacts, that he squints downward.
- He likes to think about a mythical town in Ohio, and that he is the old man in the town, with a bed he wishes was taller.
- He selects shoes without laces.
- He wonders why there are so few options to define important characteristics on online dating services.
- More than five years later, he still thinks of the morning after, in pain, driving home, a 7-11, but he couldn't get out.
- Natural light is important, but he does not need it to tell when he's been lied to.
- He swears more around his friends, but not out of anger.
- Sometimes he wishes he could just relax his shoulders and shout, "Goddamn!"
- There are limits he avoids thinking about.
- He feels he is slowing down in ways time does not touch.
- He wonders if enough people send money to the newspaper Thanksgiving ads for the poor.
- There are incidents he will only write about and share with no one.
- When he's having a good day, he drives differently, often with one hand over the top of the steering wheel.
- Some days he forgets all the attention, walking through campus, how it affects his face.
- He doesn't understand those who label their web logs "Deep Thoughts" or "Random Thoughts".
- Some days it's an AM day, some days it's an FM day.
- He remembers a time of melting snow and a thick leather jacket, walking from class and avoiding eyes he once knew.
- Even though he needs his work ID every day, he almost always has to run back in the house to fetch it.
- He recognizes a deep divide between those who just rinse after number 1 and those who walk right out after number 2.
- Some winter days, the sun is so bright off the snow, reflecting back against his contacts, that he squints downward.
- He likes to think about a mythical town in Ohio, and that he is the old man in the town, with a bed he wishes was taller.
- He selects shoes without laces.
- He wonders why there are so few options to define important characteristics on online dating services.
- More than five years later, he still thinks of the morning after, in pain, driving home, a 7-11, but he couldn't get out.
- Natural light is important, but he does not need it to tell when he's been lied to.
- He swears more around his friends, but not out of anger.
- Sometimes he wishes he could just relax his shoulders and shout, "Goddamn!"
- There are limits he avoids thinking about.
- He feels he is slowing down in ways time does not touch.
- He wonders if enough people send money to the newspaper Thanksgiving ads for the poor.
- There are incidents he will only write about and share with no one.
